Dreaming

At this moment I am contemplating what it might look like if I decided to train again and compete floor for my senior year. It would be so cool to be back and the gym and just have fun competing floor. Truly let my inner light shine and show the world what is within.

I think the task of competing floor alone would be feasible with hard work and it would definitley be a joy to my heart to be on the floor again-dancing, tumbling, smiling. just being me.

When I really stop to think about it though I know it is unlikely it will happen. I am not sure how I ever managed before spending so many hours training and there is no way financially now we would be able to go back to it.

I think returning to the sport would definitely teach me to overcome some of my fears and I think good body awareness would let me get my skills back quickly. There is no doubt in my mind that this is possible. I can still feel what it feels like to tumble even when Im not tumbling, gymnastics is a feeling and I can still feel it inside of me.

Going back would be a dream come true but I guess it is a dream that I will just keep dreaming.

This is a photo taken of me when I first started competing...