Can't quite find the words to say....

Ever have those days when you want to get away from everything?
Because the simple things break your heart and you get frustrated over every little thing, even when you know you shouldn't.
When you want more than anything is love - but to the world now days the word love insinuates being in love with someone else.
Yet your heart aches for love, an unconditional love, something felt heart to heart but has nothing to do with "being in love."
So when all the emotions sit at our doorstep, do we confide in friends? Even when that means taking the risk of bringing them down too? Or do we just keep bottling it up as we search for the words to find, to express, how we are feeling. How long will that take?
Do we just keep it in till we explode?
Perhaps the words just sit there waiting to be found, but how do we find them?
What do we do in the meantime?
Seems like the word is full of questions.....and the answers take a lot longer to find.

I find myself at a place where I need to be helped and led and then maybe I wouldn't feel so alone. But in the moment that someone else needs help I don't know what to do. I am trying to keep my head above water as it is so I am not sure how to go about helping them as well.
I am so afraid of being alone yet I isolate myself as if that is the answer. Nothing in my life seems to make sense anymore. I can't wait till I have a clear mind and feel like I can actually think again. When I can eat and not loose weight. I would like to feel not so cold and numb to the world. But I think most of all I really want to be reminded that I am loved. Its easy to forget in the midst of this.